These days are just not the same as the others--although I wish they were. I wish everyday is like one sunny afternoon at the beach--no disappointments, no pains,no insecurities. I want to stare blankly at the sea and be blinded by the rays of the sun until I could no longer open my eyes. I want to let my eyes close for a long time and just feel the wind and hear the sound of the birds and the sea. I want to lay in the sand and fall asleep without caring for the world all for anything else but myself. I want time, space, a special place just for myself.  For a day, even for just a day--I want to be free from every responsibility, from guilt, from worries. I want to think solely about myself and my happiness without feeling guilty--then I can come back to them and to the world.